There is always a better deal


Recently I have been looking for a place to rent. And I have been checking Zillow,, Forrent, Westside, and Craigslist every single day. About a week ago I found a place that was really cheap. The cheapest place in the area I was looking at by far. But when I looked at the ad it didn’t have any photos of the inside and thus I concluded that it must not look that great. Further, it didn’t have any parking.

So I decided to pass on it.

But as I kept looking at other places and at the prices of them, which were higher, I decided to give the other place a shot and check it out. I reached out to the property management company and got the contact information of the tenant that lived there so I could arrange for a showing. We planned to meet on Sunday but when the day came and I was driving around looking at places with my folks I decided to pass as I didn’t want to waste their time.

The next day I thought that I should have checked the place out anyways so I arranged for another showing and I said that I would actually show up this time. The next day I woke up early to see the studio and when I did I was unbelievably impressed. The unit was on a third story with a real panoramic ocean view and a balcony. I could not believe it. Sure I was going to have to deal with street parking, but hey the price could not be beat. I instantly called the landlord and offered to put even 6 months rent down if he wanted, so to claim the place for my own.

But it was too late. It had been rented yesterday.

A woman came in on Sunday to check out the property and was also so excited about it she applied the very next day and was approved. I was out of luck. And deservedly so. I didn’t take action so someone else did.

I can tell you, I was thoroughly disappointed. Had I just given the property a chance on Sunday, and actually showed up like I said I would, then I would have known that despite the bad photos the property was a good place to rent.

But I didn’t even give it a chance.

Afterwards I ate breakfast with a friend and he told me just like my Dad had as well, that something better will pop up.

“Once you think you missed out on the best deal, another one comes along.”

I said sure okay, nice words to hear at least because I was feeling down. I then hopped in my car and headed to work and browsed through some listings and scheduled to check one out during my lunch break. I went and visited one place, it was really close to my work so that was a plus, and it was very nice, but it was a tad pricey. I looked at it as the place I would choose if I just couldn’t find anything else. But I decided that I would go give this other place I had seen a look at. The pictures on the internet were definitely wanting as it had the same problem as the previous listing,

there were no photos of the inside.

But this time around I said who cares. Checking it out wouldn’t hardly take any time and if it was bad I could be on my merry and way and if it turned out to be good I could put in a rent application. And what do you know, it turned out to be good. Nice spacious interior, with most utilities included, tons of natural light, prime location, a balcony with a view, and a covered parking spot right underneath the unit that had room to park without fear of scratching my car doors! And only a six month lease, at a decent price too.

I really was surprised. I told the building manager who was showing me the place that I would love to apply and fill out the rental application. He said he had a good feeling about me and that if I moved in by March 1st he would even give me a slight discount on the rent. I said that I would love that. The sooner I could move in the better. That same day I filled out the application.

Fingers crossed.

As I type this blog post now, the landlord is running my credit and then will get back to me afterwards as to whether I have been approved or not. And while things are looking good, there is no guarantee that I get the place or not. If I do, I do, if I don’t I don’t. But I do know this now.

That whenever you think you have gotten the best deal, there always is another one that comes around the corner.

And don’t let this make you hesitant to pull the trigger and rent a place or what have you, otherwise you will be perennially waiting, but don’t let it get you down if you quote miss out.


Happy Hunting & Keep Smiling,


Finding Compromise: Revisited


A few days ago I wrote a blog about finding a sort of compromise for my stream. Back then I had decided that I had an idea of how my show was going to go and that I would not compromise other facets for that. Namely, my ability to get really loud. As such, it was almost impossible for me to find a place that work out as everything in the areas I was looking were stacked on top of each other.

The more I thought about it I realized that I needed to compromise my show a little bit. I was so focused on thinking about my ability to get crazy on my show I didn’t think about other aspects.

One major aspect of my show that always has been paramount while I often don’t realize it is my happiness.

SarcasticSatan, one of my long time followers, fan, moderator, and most importantly, friend, pointed it out to me one day. Paraphrasing, he said,

“We can always tell if you are in a good mood when you come to the show. You might think that we don’t know, but we realize if you are in a good place are not. And when you are happy your shows are great and that is why we watch you. But when you aren’t they are rough.”

Ever since I read this I have thought about this more concisoulsy. I need to make sure that I am in the right headspace for my show. And this means being in a living environment where I am happy. And this means that I need my own place. For many years now I have lived with friends, family, and roommates, and while I love them all, it’s like my old flame Alice once told me,

“I just need my own place.”

I will never forget my short lived relationship with her. It was one of those flings that comes straight out of a movie. It was short, and full of emotion, and it was a huge learning experience for me. I am so very thankful for that episode. I hope she is doing well and living life.

Her story of living with roommates and how it just didn’t work and that it was stifling her from getting out there on her own and really being able to live her own life really resonated with me. After all, she told me these stories to me personally as it was just the two of us together in her own apartment. She was about four years older than me and I remember her comment (again paraphrasing),

“In a way my age isn’t that much older than you, but me being almost 28 and you almost 24, so many things are going to happen to you in these next four years of your life where you get out of school and finally are forced to realize what you want to do with your life. It’s going to be a journey and you are going to need to find out what works.”

Just like her, I bounced around a lot in these past years. I went from state to state, job to job, and relationship to relationship. It really has been a lot of ups and downs and gives and takes. But at this point I have found that entertaining and edifying through my twitch stream really is a passion of mine and I want to make this work. And to do so, I need my own place where I can comfortably dedicate myself to pursuing this without feeling like I am burdening anyone else or being brought down by anyone who doesn’t believe in me.

It’s time to step out and work on my passion separately.

And I believe I am ready for this step. I have a job down in the area where I want to live so getting an apartment would be a healthy choice. I’m close to my work and it is an area with lots of little coffee shops and places to walk and meet people like I was able to in D.C. The area where I had been living at recently was nice, but very secluded, and that in the long run is not good for me either as I seriously draw energy from coming into contact with other people.

I am one of those types of people that really needs social interaction.

I know me. I could not live in the middle of Alaska, or in the wilderness. I need to be in a hip, happening place. I just enjoy meeting people so much, to be anywhere else just doesn’t make sense for me.

And besides not only am I able to meet people in a social area, and be able to walk around town, with my own place I never have to worry about the politics of dating with roommates, or worse: with family. I will spare the headaches and that way I will be able to honestly live my own life comfortably.

So now it is off to apartment hunting, but I have seen already a few places that look great. And while I will have to tone down the volume of my show a little bit, that is a compromise I am willing to make knowing that my overall happiness on my show is going to be much higher as I will finally have my own place to call my own.

So cheers to finding compromise: this time revisited.


Keep Smiling,


Patience is a Virtue


About two months ago I moved out from where I had been living. A friend of mine offered to let me stay at his place for a while and I really needed a change of environment so I took on the opportunity.

But, as nice as the situation is, it is only temporary, and I have to be thankful for that. So everyday I am looking for a new place to live or rent but I have to be honest, almost none of the places are good for what I need to do. Well, there are some that work, but they are extremely expensive and I cannot afford that.

What I am looking for is a freestanding structure, ideally a guest house of sorts, from which I can do my twitch show without disturbing anyone. As many of you readers know (that is if you watch my twitch stream at I can get really loud from time to time. Certainly not all the time, but enough of the time for me to know that I would be instantly the subject of many noise complaints if I was to live in an apartment building, in a duplex, or anything with a shared wall. In fact, I honestly cannot even do roommates either.

I just know what happens.

At first they think it is super cool that I do a twitch stream. But eventually they get really tired of it when my noise from my show wakes them up a night, or disturbs them from their studies, or whatever.

I really do need to live by myself.

And this is so that I can keep the friends that I have. The last thing I want is to make the people I am closest to hate me because they cannot live me. That is not at all what I want, so I know what I must do. And this means that I likely will have to shell out some more money to have the place I want, but I need something that works. I have been struggling trying to find the right environment for my twitch stream for many years at this point. I am not going to make the same mistake again and cut corners to save a few bucks here and there only to have it not work for my show in the long run.

As I am entering my fourth year as an internet streamer I am committed to making sure that it works this time. Or at the very least, making sure that I do not repeat the same mistakes of the past. Further, I need to be proactive and think about potential things that might not work.

And also with bringing rapping back to the show, and soon my guitar playing as well, I really will need to be mindful of potential noise complaints. Further, I saw how last night when I was doing my show I was very tired at the beginning but the moment I got rapping and loud I woke up and became more entertaining.

Getting loud gets me energized.

So there are quite a few reasons that I need to have a structure in which I can stream in peace, er in loudness actually. And that is just what is so tough. Almost nothing is coming along that works for the show and when one did it was snatched right from under me. But, that is how it goes. I just need to keep at it and have patience. I called a friend the other day who is going to put some feelers out there and make some calls for me and see if he can find someone that has a structure that I am looking for. My fingers are crossed, but more importantly I know that I just need to be patient. It’s like my Dad always said,

“Patience is a Virtue.”

And he was right. It really is a virtue, and a damn tough virtue to have I might add. But I believe that something will work out eventually. I just need to wait and keep a watchful eye out.


Keep Smiling,


Ups & Downs


Many of you know that I am currently looking for a new place to live. Over this past year I have had the blessing to stay with many different friends and family who have all been so kind to me, but at this point I really just want my own place to call home.

It doesn’t have to be big, but it has to be mine. No roommates. I need to be as Borat would say,

“King of the Castle.”

Now, the issue with finding a place for me to live is not so much about hunting for affordability (though I am trying to spend the least I can) it is rather about finding a unit that is separate and free-standing.

With my twitch show it is absolutely necessary that I have a building with no shared walls. I simply cannot risk taking out a lease only to get a noise complaint right after. Some of you have likely seen me get them on stream, e.g. when a roommate came in my room to tell me to quiet down because I was too loud for them, and I couldn’t hear them due to my headphones.

Not fun. Talk about a down.

Getting my own place has to work for me, which means it has to work for my stream. So far it it just apartment building after apartment building available for rent, which for any normal renter is totally fine. But not for me: I am not merely renting, I am also broadcasting. I know that my stream can get loud, and when I originally started streaming it was in an apartment. I know what happens. So since I am truly committed to my stream for the long term I really need to get the right place for it.

Well, yesterday I thought I had finally found the place. It was a small unit in the back of another house and it was for the most part free-standing. It had a small room in the back that jetted out into patio outside. It was perfect. A small room where I could place my computers that was not sharing any walls with other renters, and further it was a decent spacing away from the neighbors as the patio was a buffer zone. It looked like the perfect place. The son of the owner showed me the unit and I believe he was very happy to meet me. He told me to call the real estate agent for more information and to discuss the application.

Here was an up.

I left a voicemail on the agents phone last night as she did not pick up, but I tried again this morning. She promptly answered the phone, to which I was very excited, but sadly only to inform me that the property had just rented.

And here was the down.

I was more than bummed. I had been looking for quite a while now for the right place to stay, and I have been to a few different units seeing if they would work or not. And many of them have been rather sad to be honest. But this one was nice, it really was a shame that it rented.

But that is how it goes. There is nothing I can do about that now, someone else beat me to it and now it is in the past. Time to get back to the drawing board, AKA Zillow. Everyday I peruse the listings looking for something to pop up.

And what do you know? I found another up.

This building is debatably better. It’s a lot more secluded, free-standing, better parking, and a better price. But currently there is a catch: the owner wants an unusually long lease. Hopefully when I meet with the owner the two of us can make something work out as I really believe the property and I would be a great fit. So cross your fingers and say a prayer that this one works out. If it does that will be a big up, but if it doesn’t I will be prepared for another down.

It’s a rollercoaster at this point.

But I know that eventually it will come to an end when I finally find something that works. And I will be so happy. I just want a place where I can kick my shoes off, do my show, and be “King of the Castle.”

And hopefully own a cat too. Having a pet would be nice. I will be living alone after all. Having a cat would give me someone to talk to.


I just have to stay strong and keep at it. Thought it really does suck getting excited and then getting bummed out repeatedly. I probably need to guard myself more and realize when things are pipe dreams and that they likely won’t work. But, I know that one of these bids will land soon. Hopefully tomorrow’s works out. I really do think I would be a great fit for the place. Either way, I will let you all know.

Thank you for reading, and for all those out there searching for a place to live, especially for your own place, I empathize.

I remember when I was with Alice. She had just gotten her own place at just under 28 years old. She told me that it was really hurting her budget but that she just needed her own place. That was back when I was just under 24 years old. She told me then that while she was not much older than me, what happened in the next few years for me would radically change my mindset and that I would start to understand what I actually wanted in life.

And she was right.

The time gap was small, but it was great at the same time. What has happened to me in the past three years has been honestly crazy. So much. And I have come to the same realization, I need my own place too: desperately. I just do.

When I finally am “King of the Castle” I will let you all know.


Wish me luck and I promise I will keep smiling,