Having an Unadulterated Passion


I know I referenced “adultery” in the title of this post. Talk about old-school click bait practices. Unfortunately that might go over most people’s heads because I don’t think the Bible is any longer on the New York Times Best Sellers List.

Jokes. Zingggg

Anyways about my post today. Recently I have decided to stop trying to “make it” as an internet streamer after my long journey of four years. Now, this doesn’t mean that I am going to stop streaming, rather it means that I am going to stop streaming with the goal of becoming famous and having large numbers of fans.

My last few posts elaborated on why I would not want such a thing as having any level of fame comes with many severe drawbacks. But, today I want to write on how having a true passion, devoid of fame and other responsibilities that come with it after it becomes monetized, is quite nice.

When I do my show just because I want to entertain my fans, that cannot be beat.

I am there live entertaining and conversing with my true fans, the people that have watched me for years through the highs and the lows, and really it is just about friendship.

Here my content is finally pure.

It isn’t about making money, or getting views, or doing any gimmicks to gather further support or ratings. It is 100% about interacting with the fans and doing it for fun.

Many times in the past when I did the show, my content would change due to my other motivators. Maybe I would dress a certain way to get views, or use lots of props, or be really loud, or play certain games, or in worse cases become greedy, and try to shame viewers into supporting me.

There were some bad moments.

But it makes sense. Once you have other motives, namely fame and money, influencing your passion. It changes how you approach it. If you are not careful it can easily taint it. I would argue that I am a decently moral person too. Hell I even have degrees in Philosophy and Theology. I am no stranger to moral arguments and at the very least consciously thinking about what is right and wrong. Yet this didn’t prevent me from taking my stream down some unfortunate paths.

After all, I am human too.

And just like other humans, I can get greedy, and I can be a douchebag. But this also comes with the territory. Once the goal is to make money and get famous, then you necessarily will start operating differently. Sure my show was fun and genuine before those were the direct goals, but maybe doing it that way would never guarantee the success and goals that I was seeking. So I decided to change it up. This often would get me views but often at the expense of changing the quality community I had as well as making my show less fun for me in the long run.

It was no longer about having fun with people that cared to watch me. It was less about a passion and more of a business endeavor.

This got me thinking. Why don’t I just keep streaming a passion of mine and just focus on regular work as my business endeavors? This way I wouldn’t have to worry or focus on money. My job(s) are for that. My show can now just be for fun.

Now this is a big development for me.

Back in the past I have always been very vocal about how I did not just merely stream for fun. I did it because I believed that I could make a living out of it, and that it was fun on top. What could beat that?

But many twitch streamers disagree with me on this point. They believe it should be about fun first, money, fame, and success should just be an effect of a true-natured show. I can surely understand their reasoning here, but I still disagree. If someone wants to make it on their show that is totally fine with me. I don’t think there is anything wrong with having aspirations. Why any twitch streamer does what they do is entirely up to them.

I am not going to make the decision for them, and further say that they are in the wrong for coming to their respective decision as to why they choose to stream.

But I will say, that now that I stream purely for fun, it honestly couldn’t be better.

There is no more stress on my show. It is just for my fun and for my chat’s fun. It doesn’t matter if I don’t get a lot of views, or no tips, or subs, etc. It is all well and good that I just enjoy the stream with those who already care about me.

The stream is finally unadulterated.

I have no other motivators outside of simply wanting to come interact and entertain my fans. As I am now solely focused on my business endeavors for money (which is honestly healthier for both me and for my pockets than relying on twitch money) and coupled with that I am no longer interested in having a large audience, my channel is finally about me being me.

Who cares if I don’t entertain a large crowd? I don’t. I already have my crowd. They are the Cult. And they watch me for me.

Talk about loyal fans.

But it really is nice this way. And it makes me feel very at peace when I do these kinds of streams. Many twitch streamers in the past have always talked about their communities that they built and mine was always a little different. I really do have an interesting mix of people in my channel as over the years I have played many different games, tried many different tactics, and thus my channel reflects that.

I have fans from the Counter-Strike days, the Rainbow Six days, the IRL streams, the SURF streams, The truck sim Streams, Dark Souls, Music, Book Talks, Chess, and more. The people that still watch all come from many different backgrounds associated with my channel, yet they come in to watch me.

And now I can finally give them just me. With no strings attached.

Cheers to making the Cult, a much truer cult.


Keep Smiling,



2 thoughts on “Having an Unadulterated Passion

  1. Amazing blog! Do you have any tips and hints for aspiring writers?
    I’m planning to start my own site soon but I’m a little lost on everything.
    Would you suggest starting with a free platform like
    Wordpress or go for a paid option? There are so many options out there that I’m
    totally confused .. Any tips? Many thanks!


    1. Thank you very much. I appreciate the compliment. I pay 100$ a year for my blog. It’s worth the money to me as I love the professional look and design of WordPress and its many templates. I would recommend it. As for blogging the best tip I could give you is to start right away. Don’t make excuses or wait for “the perfect time.” That never comes. Just get to it and post!


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